pre-camper moments I

Alright so it isn't really Day 1 of staff training. But, my internet has been wonky and this is what happened on Day 1, according to my makeshift blog in Word:

So, this is scary again. It’s so good to be back here and on my main room floor again, and in my dorms, and on my campus. But, I am being abruptly and clearly reminded of how scary this is for me. I can’t figure out why, but it is. These activities make me weak in the knees, teary-eyed, and nauseous. They require you to be big, but humbly big. Who knew that the anticipation of a 3-minute time span to be utilized only to ask you questions about yourself could instill such feelings of nervousness, insecurity, and in some cases inadequacy. Sigh. I appreciate the time we have together as a staff, but staff training is so scary. Glad to be done with Day One, but fully aware that only tougher, scarier things are to come.